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This is an excerpt from my novel Hardwired, published
in 1986 by Tor Books. A shorter version of this excerpt was published
in Omni magazine. This excerpt is copyright (c) 1986 by
Walter Jon Williams. All rights are reserved by the author. It
may not be duplicated or distributed without permission of the
author.
"Due to strong language and themes," as they say
on TV, this excerpt should be viewed only by adults--- of all
ages.
TODAY/YES
Bodies and parts of bodies flare and die in laserlight, here
the translucent sheen of eyes rimmed in kohl or turned up to
a heaven masked by the starry-glitter ceiling, here electric
hair flaring with fashionable static discharges, here a blue-white
glow of teeth rimmed in darkglow fire and pierced by mute extended
tongue. It is zonedance. Though the band is loud and sweat-hot
many of the zoned are tuned to their own music, hearing sounds
of their choice through chips wired delicately to the auditory
nerves, or dancing to the headsets through which they can pick
up any of the bar's twelve channels . . . they seeth in arthrhythmic
patterns, heedless of each other. Perfect control is sought,
but there are accidents--- impacts--- a flurry of fists and elbows---
and someone crawls out of the zone, whimpering through a bloodstreaked
hand, unnoticed by the pack.
To Sarah the dancers at the Aujourd'Oui seem a twitching mass
of dying flesh, bloody, insensate, mortal. Bound by the mud of
Earth. They are meat. She is hunting, and Weasel is the name
of her friend.
MODERNBODYMODERNBODYMODERNBODYMODERN
ALL ELECTRIC--- REPLACEABLE---
IN THE MODE!
GET ONE NOW!
BODYMODERNBODYMODERNBODYMODERNBODY
The body designer has eyes of glittering
violet above cheekbones of sculptured ivory. Her hair is a streaky
blonde that sweeps to an architecturally perfect dorsal fin behind
her nape. Her muscles are catlike and her mouth is a cruel flower.
"Hair shorter, yes," she says. "One doesn't
wear it long in freefall." Her fingers lash out and seize
Sarah by the chin, tilting her head to the cold north light.
Her fingernails are violet, to match her eyes, and sharp. Sarah
glares at her, sullen. The body designer smiles. "A little
pad in the chin, yes," she says. "You need a stronger
chin. The tip of the nose can be altered; you're a bit too
retrouss. The curve of the jawbone needs a little flattening---
I'll bring my paring knife tomorrow. And of course we'll remove
the scars. Those scars have got to go." Sarah curls
her lip under the pressure of the violet-tipped fingers.
The designer drops Sarah's chin and whirls. "Must we
use this girl, Cunningham?" she asks. "She has no style
at all. She can't walk gracefully. Her body's too big, too awkward.
She's nothing. She's dirt. Common."
Cunningham sits silently in his brown suit, his neutral, unmemorable
face giving away nothing. His voice is whispery, calm, yet still
authoritative. So devoid is it of highlights that Sarah thinks
it could be a computer voice. "Our Sarah has style, Firebud,"
he says. "Style and discipline. You are to give it form,
to fashion it. Her style must be a weapon, a shaped charge. You
will make it, I will point it. And Sarah will punch a hole right
where we intend she should." He looks at Sarah with his
steady brown eyes. "Won't you, Sarah?" he asks.
Sarah does not reply. Instead she looks up at the body designer,
drawing back her lips, showing teeth. "Let me hunt you some
night, Firebud," she says. "I'll show you style."
The designer rolls her eyes. "Dirtgirl stuff," she
snorts, but she takes a step back. Sarah grins.
"And Firebud," Cunningham says. "Leave the
scars alone. They will speak to our Princess. Of this cruel terrestrial
reality which she helped create. Which she dominates. With which
she is already half in love.
"Yes," he says, "leave the scars alone."
For the first time he smiles, a brief tightening of the cheek
muscles, cold as liquid nitrogen. "Our Princess will love
the scars," he says. "Love them till the very last."
WINNERS/YES LOSERS/YES
The Aujourd'Oui is a jockey bar, and they are all here, moonjocks
and rigjocks, holdjocks and powerjocks and rockjocks--- the jocks
condescending to share the floor along with the mudboys and dirtgirls
who surround them, those who hope to become them or who love
them or want simply to be near them, to touch them in the zonedance
and absorb a piece of their radiance. The jocks wear their colors,
vests and jackets bearing the emblems of their blocs, TRW, Pfizer,
Toshiba, Tupolev, ARAMCO, blazons of the Rock War victors borne
with careless pride by the jocks who had won their place in the
sky. Sarah stalks among them in a black satin jacket, blazoned
on its back with a white crane that rises to the starry firmament
amid a flock of chromebright Chinese characters. It is the badge
of a small bloc that does most of its business in Singapore,
and is hardly ever to be seen here in the Florida Free Zone.
Her face is unknown to the regulars but it is hoped they won't
think it odd, not as odd as it would seem if she wore the badge
of Tupolev or Kikuyu Optics I.G.
Her sculpted face is pale, the Florida tan gone, her eyes
black-rimmed. Her almost-black hair is short on the sides and
brushy on top, her napehair falling in two thin braids to the
small of her back. Chrome steel earrings brush her shoulders.
Firebud has broadened her already-broad shoulders and pared down
the width of her pelvis; her face is sharp and pointed beneath
a widows's peak, looking like a succession of arrowheads, the
shaped-charge that Cunningham demands. She wears black dancing
slippers laced over the ankles and dark purple stretch-overalls
with suspenders that frame her breasts, stretching the fabric
over the nipples that Firebud has made more prominent. Her shirt
is gauze spangled silver, her neckscarf black silk. There is
a 2-way spliced into her auditory nerve and a receiver tagged
to the optic centers of her forebrain, monitoring police broadcasts
at the moment, a constant Times Square of an LED running amber,
at will, above her expanded vision.
Gifts from Cunningham. Her wired-up nerves are her own.
So is Weasel.
I LOVE MY KIKUYU EYES,
SEZ PRIMO PORNOSTAR ROD MCLEISH, AND WITH THE INFRARED OPTION,
I CAN TELL IF MY PARTNER'S REALLY EXCITED OR IF I'M JUST ON A
SILICON RIDE . . . KIKUYU OPTICS I.G., A DIVISION OF MIKOYAN-GUREVICH
She met Cunningham in another bar, the Blue Silk. Sarah ran
Weasel as per contract but the snagboy, a runner who had got
more greedy than he had the smarts to handle, had been altered
himself and she is nursing bruises. She recovered the goods,
fortunately, and since she the contract was with the thirdmen
she has been paid in endorphins, handy since she's had to use
a few of them herself. There is a bone bruise on the back of
her thigh and she can't sit; instead she leans back against the
padded bar and sips her rum and lime. The Blue Silk's audio system
plays island music and sooths her played-up nerves.
The Blue Silk is run by an ex-cutterjock named Maurice. He
is a West Indian with the old-model Zeiss eyes who was on the
losing side in the Rock War. There are pictures of his friends
and heroes on the walls, all of them with the azure silk neck
scarves of the elite space defense corps, most of them framed
with black mourning ribbons that are turning purple with the
long years.
Sarah wonders what he has seen with those eyes. Has it included
the burst of X-rays that preceded the ten thousand-ton rocks,
launched from the Orbital mass drivers, that tore through the
atmosphere to crash on Earth's cities? The artificial meteors,
each with the force of a nuclear blast, had first fallen in the
Eastern hemisphere, over Mombasa and Calcutta, and by the time
the planet had rotated and made the western hemisphere a target
the Earth had surrendered--- but the Orbital blocs felt they
hadn't made their point forcefully enough in the West, and so
the rocks fell anyway. Communications foulup, they said.
Earth's billions knew better.
Sarah was eight. She was doing a tour in a Youth Reclamation
Camp near Stone Mountain when three rocks obliterated Atlanta
and killed her mother. Daud, who was five, was trapped in the
rubble, but the neighbors heard his screams and got him out.
After that Sarah and her brother bounced from one DP agency to
another, then ended up in Tampa with her father, who she hadn't
seen or heard from since she was three. The social worker held
her hand all the way up the decaying apartment stairs, and Sarah
held Daud's. She remembered the way the halls stank of urine,
and the way a dismembered doll lay strewn on the second-floor
landing. When the door opened she saw a man in a torn shirt with
sweat stains in the armpits. He had watery alcoholic eyes. The
eyes, uncomprehending, had moved from Sarah and Daud and then
to the social worker as the papers were served, and the social
worker said, "This is your father. He'll take care of you,"
before dropping Sarah's hand. It turned out to be only half a
lie.
She looks at the fading photographs in their dusty frames,
the dead men and women with their metallic Zeiss eyes. Maurice
is looking at them, too. He is lost in his memories, and it looks
as if he is trying to cry; but his eyes are lubricated with silicon
and his tear ducts are gone, of course, along with his dreams,
with the dreams of the billions who had hoped the orbitals would
improve their lives, who have no hope now but to get out somehow,
out into the cold, perfect cobalt of the sky.
Sarah wishes she could cry herself, for the dead hope framed
in black on the walls, for herself and Daud, for the broken thing
that was all earthly aspiration, even for the snagboy who had
seen his chance to escape but not been smart enough to play his
way out of the game his hopes had dealt him into. But the tears
are long gone and in their place is hardened steel desire---
the desire shared by all the dirtgirls and mudboys. To achieve
it she has to want it more, and she has to be willing to do what
is necessary--- or to have it done to her, if it came to that.
Involuntarily her hand comes to her throat as she thinks of Weasel.
No, there is no time for tears.
"Looking for work, Sarah?" The voice came from the
quiet white man who has been sitting at the end of the bar. He
has come closer, one hand on the back of the bar stool next to
her. He is smiling as if he is unaccustomed to it.
She narrows her eyes as she looks at him sidelong, and takes
a deliberately long drink. "Not the kind of work you have
in mind, collarboy," she says.
"You come recommended," he says. His voice is sandpaper,
the kind you never forget. Perhaps he'd never had to raise it
in his life.
She drinks again and looks at him. "By whom?" she
says. 
The smile is gone now; the nondescript face looks at her warily.
"The Hetman," he says.
"Michael?" she asks. He nods.
"My name is Cunningham," he says.
"Do you mind if I call Michael and ask him?" she
says. The Hetman controls the Bay thirdmen and sometimes she
runs the Weasel for him. She doesn't like the idea of his dropping
her name to strangers.
"If you like," Cunningham says. "But I'd like
to talk to you about work first."
"This isn't the bar I go to for work," she says.
"See me in the Plastic Girl, at ten."
"This isn't the sort of offer that can wait."
Sarah turns her back to him and looks into Maurice's metal
eyes. "This man," she says, "is bothering me."
Maurice's face does not change expression. "You best
leave," he says to Cunningham.
Sarah, not looking at Cunningham, receives from the corner
of her eye an impression of a spring uncoiling. Cunningham seems
taller than he has a moment ago.
"Do I get to finish my drink first?" he asks.
Maurice, without looking down, reaches into the till and flicks
bills on the dark surface of the bar. "Drink's on the house.
Outa my place."
Cunningham says nothing, just gazes for a calm moment into
the unblinking metal eyes. "Townsend," Maurice says,
a code word and the name of the general who had once led him
up against the orbitals and their burning defensive energies.
The Blue Silk's hardware voiceprints him and recognizes his West
Indian accents, and then the defensive systems appear from where
they are hidden above the bar mirror and lock down into place.
Sarah glances up. Military lasers, she thinks, scrounged on the
black market, or maybe from Maurice's old cutter. She wonders
if the bar has power enough to use them, or whether they are
bluff.
Cunningham stands still for another half-second, then turns
and leaves the Blue Silk without a word. Sarah does not watch
him go.
"Thanks, Maurice," she says.
Maurice forces a sad smile. "Hell, lady," he says.
"You regular customer. And that fella been orbital."
Sarah contemplates her surprise. "He's from the blocs?"
she asks. "You're sure?"
"Innes," Maurice says, another name from the past,
and the lasers slot up into place. His hands flicker out to take
the money from the bar. "I didn't say he's from the blocs,
Sarah," he says, "but he's been there. Recently, too.
You can tell from the way they walk, if you got the eyes."
He raises a gnarled finger to his head. "His ear, you know?
It take a while to adjust. Centrifugal gravity is different from
the real."
Sarah frowns. What kind of job is the man offering? Something
important enough to bring him down through the atmosphere, to
hire some dirtgirl and her Weasel? It doesn't seem likely.
Well. She'll see him in the Plastic Girl. Or not. She isn't
going to worry about it. She shifts her weight from one leg to
the other, the muscles crackling with pain even through the endorphin
haze. She holds out her glass. "Another, please, Maurice,"
she says.
With a slow grace that must have served him well in the high
black starry evernight, Maurice turns toward the mirror and reaches
for the rum. Even in a gesture this simple, there is still a
throb of sadness.
ARTIFICIAL INTELLIGENCE
LOSES PATERNITY SUIT "MY LITTLE ANDROID HAS A NAME,"
SOBS GRATEFUL MOTHER
KOROLEV I.G. OFFERS NO
COMMENT
She takes a taxi home from the Blue Silk, trying to ignore
Cunningham's calm eyes on the back of her head as she gives the
driver her address. How much is she throwing away, here?
Cunningham is across the street under an awning, pretending
to read a magazine while the noonday heat and the swamping humidity
bring sweat up onto his face, dripping from his nose and brow
ridges onto the slick paper. She doesn't turn to see if he registers
dismay at her retreat, but somehow she doubts his expression
has changed.
With Daud she shares a two-room apartment that hums. There
is the hum of the coolers and recyclers, more humming from the
little glowing robots that move about randomly, doing the dusting
and polishing, devouring insects and arachnids and cleaning the
cobwebs out of corners.
She has a modest comp deck in the front room and Daud has
a vast audio system hooked to it, with a six-foot screen to show
the vid. It's on now, silently, showing computer-generated color
patterns, broadcasting them with laser optics on the ceiling
and walls. The computer is running the changes on red and the
walls burn with cold and silent fire.
Sarah turns off the vid and looks down at the comp deck cooling,
the reds fading slowly from her retinas. The endorphins are wearing
off and the bone bruise on her thigh is hammering her with every
step. It's time for another dose.
She looks in her hiding place and sees that two of her twelve
vials of endorphin are gone. Daud, of course. She hadn't thought
he'd find her new place so soon. Not that there are very many
places to hide even small amounts of stuff in an apartment this
size. She sighs, then ties her tourniquet above the elbow. She
slots a vial into her injector, dials the dose she wants, and
presses the injector to her arm. The injector hums and she sees
a bubble rise in the vial. Then there is a warning light on the
injector and she feels a tug of flesh as the needle slides on
its cool spray of anaesthetic into her arm to find its vein.
She unties the tourniquet, watches the LED on the injector pulse
ten times, and then she feels a veil slide between her and her
pain. She takes a ragged breath, then stands. She leaves the
endorphins on the sofa and walks back to the comp.
Michael the Hetman is in his office when she calls. She speaks
to him in Spanglish and he laughs.
"I thought I'd hear from you today, mi hermana,"
he says. 
"Yes?" she asks. "You know this orbiter Cunningham?"
"So-so. We've done business. He has the highest recommendations."
"Whose?"
"The highest," he says.
"So you recommend that I trust him?" Sarah asks.
His laugh seems a little jangled. She wonders if he is high.
"I never make that kind of recommendation, mi hermana,"
he says.
"Yes, you would, Hetman," Sarah says. "If you
are getting a piece of whatever it is Cunningham is doing. As
it is, you're just doing him a favor."
"Do svidaniya, my sister," says Michael, sounding
annoyed, and snaps off. Sarah looks into the humming receiver
and frowns.
The door opens behind her and she spins and goes into her
stance, balanced to jump forward or back, cursing the endorphins
that have slackened her nerves. Daud walks carelessly in the
door. Behind him, carrying a six-pack of beer, comes his manager,
Jackstraw, a small young man with unquiet eyes.
Daud looks up at her. "You expecting someone else?"
he asks.
She relaxes. "No," she says. "Just nerves.
It's been a nervous day."
Daud's eyes move restlessly over the small apartment. He has
altered them from brown to a pale blue, just as he'd altered
the color of his hair, eyebrows, and lashes to a white blonde.
He is tanned and has his hair shoulder-length and shaggy. He
wears tooled leather sandals and a tight white pair of slacks
under a dark net shirt. He is taking hormone suppressants and
though he is twenty he looks fifteen and beardless.
Sarah moves over to him and kisses him hello. "I'm working
tonight," he says. He gives a shadowy grin. "He wants
to have dinner, I can't stay long."
"Is it someone you know?" she asks.
"Yes." He gives a shadowy grin, meant to be reassuring.
His blue eyes flicker. "I've been with him before."
"Not a thatch?"
He shrugs out of her embrace and goes to sit on the sofa.
"No," he mumbles. "An old guy. Lonely, I guess.
Easy to please. Wants to talk more than anything." He sees
the plastic pack of endorphins and picks it up, searching through
it. Sarah sees two more vials vanish between his fingers.
"Daud," she says, her voice a warning. "That's
our food and rent--- I've got to get it on the street."
"Just one," Daud says. He drops the other back in
the bag, holds up the other to let her see it.
"You've already had your share," Sarah says.
His pale eyes flicker in his dark face. "Okay,"
he says. "Uno pinchazo, hey."
His need is too strong. She looks down and shakes her head.
"One," she agrees. "Okay." She watches as
he loads the injector and dials the dosage--- a high dosage,
she knows, since he only has the one. She resists the urge to
check the injector, knowing that someday if he goes on this way
he'll put himself in a coma, but knowing how much he'd resent
her concern. Sarah watches as the endorphin hits his head, as
he lies back and sighs, his twitchy nervousness gone.
She takes the injector and frees the vial, then puts it in
the plastic bag. There is a half-smile on Daud's face as he looks
up at her. "Thanks, Sarah," he says.
"I love you," she says.
He closes his eyes and strops his back on the sofa like a
cat. His throat makes strange whimpering noises. She takes the
bag and walks into her room and throws the bag on her bed. A
wave of sadness whispers through her veins like a drug of melancholy.
Daud will die before long, and she can't stop it.
Once it had been Sarah who stood between him and life, now
it is the endorphins that keep him insulated from the things
that want to touch him. Their father had been crazy and violent
and Sarah had fought him as long as she could stand it. Half
her scars were Daud's by right: she had suffered them on his
behalf, shielding him with her body. The madman's beatings had
taught her to fight back, had made her hard and quick, but she
couldn't be there all the time and the old man had sensed weakness
in Daud and found it. She herself hadn't been able to stand it,
and when she was fourteen she'd run with the first boy who'd
promised her a place free from pain: two years later, when she'd
bought her way out of her first contract and come back for him,
Daud had been shattered beyond repair, the needle already in
his arm. She'd led him to the new house where she worked--- it
was the only place she had--- and there he'd learned to earn
his living, as she had learned in her own time. He is broken
still, and Sarah knows that as long as they are in the streets
there is no way of healing him.
If she hadn't cracked, if she hadn't run away, she might have
been able to protect him. She won't crack again.
She returns to the other room and sees Daud lying on the sofa,
one sandal hanging with the straps tangled between his toes.
Jackstraw is sitting next to him on the sofa and drinking one
of his beers. He glances up.
"You look like you're limping," he says. "Would
you like me to rub your legs?"
"No," Sarah says quickly, and then realizes she
is being too sharp. "No," she says again, with a smile.
"Thank you. But it's a bone bruise. If you touched me I'd
scream."
ARTIFICIAL DREAMS
The Plastic Girl is a hustler's idea of the good life: plush
and chrome and a lot of dark booths in the back where business
can be done. There is a room for zonedance, and there are headsets
that plug you into euphoric states or pornography or whatever
it is you need and are afraid to shoot into your veins. Orbital
pharmaceutical companies provide the effects free, as advertising
for their products. There are dancers on a mirrored bar in the
back, a bar equipped with arcade games so that if you win, a
connection snaps in one of the dancer's garments and it falls
off. If you win big all the clothes fall off all the dancers
at once.
Sarah is in the big front room: brassy music, red leather
booths, brass ornaments. She does not, and will probably never,
rate the quiet room in the back, all brushed aluminum the dark
wood that might have been the last mahogany tree in Southeast
Asia--- that room is for the big boys who run this fast and dangerous
world, and though there isn't a sign that says NO WOMEN ALLOWED
there might as well be. Sarah is an independent contractor and
rates a certain amount of respect, but in the end she is still
meat for hire, though on a more elevated plane than once she
was.
But still, the red room is nice. There are colorful holograms,
colors and helixes like modelled DNA, floating just above eye
level, casting their variegated light through the crystal and
sparkling liquor held in the patrons' hands, and there are sockets
at every table for comp decks so that the patrons can keep up
with their portfolios, and there are girls with reconstructed
breasts and faces who come to each table in their tight plastic
corsets, bring you your drink, and watch with identical and very
white smiles as you put your credit spike into their tabulator
and tap in a generous tip with your fingernail.
Sarah is ready for the meet with Cunningham, wearing a navy
blue jacket guaranteed to protect her against kinetic violence
of up to 900 foot-pounds per square inch and trousers good for
750. She has invested some of the endorphins and bought the time
of a pair of her peers. They are walking loose about the bar,
ready to keep Cunningham or his friends off her back if she needs
it. She knows she needs a clear head and has kept the endorphin
dose down. Pain is making her edgy, and she still can't sit.
She stands at a small table and sips her rum and lime, waiting.
And then Cunningham is there, looking much as he was before,
and is to be later. Bland face, brown eyes, brown hair, brown
suit. A whispery voice that speaks of clean places she has never
been, places bright and soft against the black and pure diamond.
A body that she had once thought of as a coiled spring, but which
later she comes to think of as a precision weapon with a bullet
up the spout and the safety lever, just barely, holding back
the firing pin.
"Okay, Cunningham," she says. "Business."
Cunningham's eyes flicker to the mirror behind her. "Friends?"
he asks.
"I don't know you."
"You've called the Hetman?" She nods.
"He was complimentary," she says, "but you're
not working for him, he's paying you a favor, maybe. So I'm cautious."
"Understandable." He takes a comp deck out of an
inner pocket and plugs it into the table. A pale amber screen
in the depths of the dark tabletop lights up, displaying a row
of figures.
"We're offering you this in dollars," he says. Sarah
feels a touch of metal on her nerves, on her tongue. The score,
she thinks, the real thing.
"Dollars?" she says automatically. "Get serious."
"Gold?" Another set of figures appears. She takes
a sip of rum.
"Too heavy."
"Stock. Or drugs. Take your pick."
"What kind of stock? What kind of drugs?"
"Your choice."
"Polymyxin-phenildorphin Nu. There's a shortage right
now."
Cunningham frowns. "If you like. But there'll be a lot
of it coming onto the market in another three weeks or so."

Her eyes challenge him. "Did you bring it down from orbit
with you?" she asks.
His face fails so much as to twitch. "No," he says.
"But if I were you I'd try Chloramphenildorphin. Pfizer
is arranging an artificial scarcity that will last several months.
Here are the figures. Pharmacological quality, fresh from orbit."
Sarah looks at the glowing amber numbers and nods. "Satisfactory,"
she says. "Half in advance."
"Ten percent now," Cunningham says. "Thirty
on completion of training. The rest on completion of the contract,
whether you succeed or not."
She looks up at one of the bar's moving holograms, the colors
clean and bright, as pure as if seen through a vacuum. A vacuum,
she thinks. The stock offer isn't bad, but she can do more with
the drugs. Cunningham is offering her the drugs at their Orbital
value, where they are made and where the cost is almost nothing.
The street value is far more, and with it she can buy more stock
than the amount they;re offering. Ten per cent of that figure
is more than she'd made last night, when she'd gone after the
snagboy.
To get into the Orbitals you have to have skills they need,
skills she can never acquire. There is another way: they can't
refuse someone who owned enough shares. They are sucking up all
Earth's remaining wealth, and if you help them and buy up enough
stock they might free you from the mud forever. This is almost
enough, she calculates. Almost enough for a pair of tickets to
the top of the gravity well.
She brings her drink to her lips. "Let's say a quarter
now," she says. "And then I'll let you buy me a drink,
and you can tell me just what you want me to do to earn it."
Cunningham turns and signals to one of the smiling corset
girls. "It's very simple," he says, and he looks at
her with his ice-cold eyes. "We want you to make someone
fall in love with you. Just for a night."
IS YOUR LOVER LOOKING
FOR SOMEONE YOUNGER?
YOU CAN BE THAT SOMEONE!
"The Princess is about eighty years old," Cunningham
says. The hologram he gives Sarah is of a pale blonde girl of
about twenty, dressed in a kind of ruffled blouse that exposes
her rounded shoulders, the hollows of her clavicles. She has
Daud's watery blue eyes and freckles above her breasts. She projects
an air of vulnerable innocence.
"We think he was originally from Russia," Cunningham
goes on, "but the Korolev Bureau has always been secretive
and we don't have a complete list of their senior staff and designers.
When he rated the new body he asked to be a woman. He's important
enough so that they gave it to him, but they gave him a demotion---
they rotate out all their old people to make way for the new.
She's doing courier duty now."
Not unusual, Sarah thinks. These days you can get pornography
read straight into the brain, plenty of chances to sample whatever
pleasures you like and then, if rich enough, getting yourself
a new body to suit your tastes. But the technology of personality
transfer is imperfect--- sometimes bits get left behind, memories,
abilities, traits that might be useful. A progression of bodies
can mean progressive senility. If you get a new body and aren't
so powerful you can't be moved, you often get demoted until you
can prove yourself.
"What's her new name?" she asks.
"She'll tell you, I'm sure. Let's just call her Princess
for now." Sarah shrugs. There are half a dozen imbecilic
security rules in this operation, and she guesses that most of
them are simply to test her capacity for obedience.
"Her new body doesn't seem to have altered her sexual
orientation, just his manner of expressing it," Cunningham
says. "Princess has exhibited some characteristic behaviors
since she's started her new job. When she's on the ground she
likes to go slumming. Find herself a working girl--- sometimes
a dirtgirl, most often a girljock--- and take her home for a
night or two. She wants a pet, but a dangerous one. Not too clean.
A little rough. Not too removed from the street. But civilized
enough to know how to please. Not a thatch."
"That's me?" Sarah asks, with no surprise. "Her
new pet?"
"We've researched you. You were a licensed prostitute
for five years. And rated highly by your employers."
"Five and a half," she says. "And not with
girls."
"He's a man, really. An old man. Why should it be hard
for you?"
Sarah looks at the blonde freckled girl in the hologram, trying
to find the old Russian in those eyes. The look that was always
the same, wanting her to be some piece of private fantasy, real
but not too real, orgasms genuine but never with genuine passion.
The Plastic Girl, an object for things that grew hidden in their
minds, something they could get rid of quickly and never have
to take home. They were upset, somehow, if you didn't understand
their fantasy right away. After a while she had got so that she
could.
She looks at the picture. No different from all the other
old men, she thinks. Not really. Power they want, over their
own flesh and another's. Pay not so much for sex, but for power
over sex, over the thing that threatens to control them. And
so they take their passion and use it to control others. She
understood control all right.
She looks up at Cunningham. "Did they give you
a new body as well?" she asks. "Guaranteed inconspicuous?
Or did you have Firebud make you over, so that you had no style
at all?"
He gazes at her steadily, the same calm gaze. She can't seem
to touch it, or him. "I can't say," he says. 
"How long have you worked for them?" she asks. "You
were a mudboy once--- you don't have the look that they
do. But you work for them now. Is that what they promised you?
A new body when you get old? And if you die on one of these jobs
here in the mud, a nice funeral with the corporate anthem sung
over your body?"
"Something like that," he agrees.
"Got you heart and soul, have they?" she asks.
"That's how they want it." Dryly, accepting. He
knows the price of his ticket.
"Control," she says. "You understand that.
You are controlled by people who worship control, and so you
control yourself well. But you're a pressure cooker, and the
steam is just under the surface. Do you go slumming in your off
hours, like Princess? To the clubs, to the houses? Are you one
of my old customers?" She gazes into his expressionless
eyes. "You could be," she says, "I never remembered
faces."
"As it happens, I'm not," he says. "I never
saw you before I was given this assignment." He is beginning
to look a little out of patience. Sarah grins.
"Don't worry," she says, and throws the holo of
Princess on the table. "I'll do your owners proud."
"I'm sure you will," he says. "They won't have
it any other way."
IN THE ZONE/YES
Like Times Square neon the amber LED tracks across the upper
limits of Sarah's vision, just where the shadow of her brows
would be.
PRINCESS MOVING PRINCESS MOVING PRINCESS MOVING . . .
The Aujourd'Oui is Princess's favorite spot, but there are
others. Sarah should be ready to move at need.
The washroom at the Aujourd'Oui is a conglomeration of mirrors
and soft white lights, red flock on the gold wallpaper, bronze
water spouts above the sinks, chromed dispensers offering tissue
for the adjustment of makeup. Sarah shoulders through the door
and a pair of dirtgirls standing in front of the mirrors glance
at her. There is envy in their glance, and a kind of desperate
awe, and then the eyes turn self-consciously back to the mirrors.
The satin jacket represents something they want and will most
likely never have, the freedom of the white crane to climb into
the sky amid the silver glitter of stars. Sarah is suddenly aware
of the sound of sobbing, magnified by the low ceiling, the hard
edges of the room. The dirtgirls' eyes stay fixed in their own
reflections as she passes and steps into a stall.
It is the girl in the next stall who is weeping, pausing only
to draw massive shuddering breaths before bringing the air out
again past the tortured muscles of the throat. It hurts to cry
that hard, Sarah knows. The ribs feels as if they are breaking.
The stall shudders to the impact as the other girl, apparently,
drives her head against its wall, and Sarah knows that it is
pain the girl is seeking, perhaps to drive out pain of another
kind.
Sarah tries not to get between people and what they need.
To the sound of the impacts Sarah takes her inhaler from her
belt, puts it to her nose, and triggers it. There is a brief
hiss of compressed gas. Sarah throws her head back, feeling the
rush of the drug. The stall quakes. Sarah inhales again, using
the other nostril, and she feels her nerves go warm and then
cold, the hair on her forearms prickling. Her lips peel back
from her teeth, and she feels at once abnormally sensitive and
abnormally hard, as if her skin is made of razor blades that
can feel every mote of dust. She needed the bite of the drug,
needed it to give herself that extra piece of conviction. She
hadn't mentioned it to Cunningham--- the hell with him--- she
would play it her own way . . .
PRINCESS MOVING PRINCESS MOVING. . .
The other girl's weeping is a whining, grating sound, like
a saw on bone, syncopated with hysterical crashing as she smashes
again and again into the divider. Sarah can see flecks of blood
daubing the floor of the next stall. She opens her door and sweeps
through the room, past the dirtgirls whose eyes stand out pale
amid their rimming of kohl as they gaze at each other and wonder
what to do about the sobbing casualty. PRINCESS AUJOURDOUI
REPEAT OUJOURDOUI AM SWITCHING POLICE TRANSMISSIONS GOOD HUNTING
CUNNINGHAM.
Sarah blinks as she stepped into the darkness of the club,
feeling the drug impelling her limbs to motion, and she rides
the drug like a jock on the flaming roman candle of a booster,
climbing for the edge of the sky and still in control. The corners
of the room, the dancers and fixtures, flare like liquid- crystal
kaleidescopes.
And then Princess comes, and Sarah's motion freezes. Princess
is surrounded by dirtboy muscle but she stands out clearly in
the dark--- there is an aura about her, a glow. She has the Look
as none of them have, a soft radiance that speaks of luxury,
soft and carefree joys, freedom even from gravity. A life even
the jocks can't share. It seems as if there is a pause in the
music, as the room inhales in mutual awe. Two hundred eyes can
see the glow and a hundred mouths, hungry for it, begin to salivate.
Sarah feels her body tingle, flares of nerve-warmth at her fingertips.
She is ready.
Sarah gives a soft private laugh, as if her triumph were already
a fact, and walks long-legged across the darkened bar as Firebud
has taught her, swinging her broad shoulders in counterpoint
to her hips, insinuant animal style. She gives a grin to the
muscle and holds her hands palms-out to show them she carries
no weapons, and then Princess stands before her.
She is a good four inches shorter and Sarah looks down at
her, hands cocked on her hips, challenging. Princess' soft blonde
hair is worn long, ringlets playing with her cheeks, her shoulders.
Her eyes are circled with vast blooms of purple and yellow makeup,
to look like bruises, making public the secret wish of a translucent
white face that has never known pain. Her mouth is a deep violet,
another laceration. She is wearing a creamy something that matches
her blue, innocent eyes. Sarah cocks her head back and laughs
low, baring her teeth, and thinks of the sounds hyenas make on
the hunt.
"Dance with me, Princess," she says to the wide
cornflower of her eyes. "I am your wildest dreams."
PRACTICE CREATES PERFECTION
PERFECTION CREATES POWER
POWER CONQUERS LAW
LAW CREATES HEAVEN
a helpful reminder
from Toshiba
Nicole has a cigaret in the corner of her mouth and wears
a jacket of cracked brown leather. She has dark blonde hair that
reaches down her back in tawny strands, and long deep-grey eyes
that look up at Sarah without a flicker.
"You can't hesitate for a second, Sarah," Cunningham
says. "Not even the fragment of a second. Princess will
know it and know there's something wrong. Nicole is here for
that. You are to practice with her."
Sarah looks at Nicole for a moment of surprise and then barks
a laugh. Anger bubbles in her whitely, coolly, like flares on
the night horizon. "I suppose you plan to watch, Cunningham,"
she says.
He nods. "Yes," he says. "I and Firebud. You
seemed uncertain at first about making love to a woman."
Nicole draws slowly on her cigaret and says nothing.
"Make a vid record, perhaps?" Sarah asks. "Give
me post-game critique?" She curls her lip. "Is that
your particular pleasure, Cunningham?" she demands. "Does
watching this kind of vid keep your demons away?"
"We'll destroy the vids together, if you like. Afterward."
Cunningham says.
Sarah has been two months in the training, has had her body
altered and surgical work done, and all along she has been their
willing dirtgirl. But however many candidates had been in Cunningham's
files she is sure she's the only hope now, the only charge Cunningham
will have shaped by the time Princess next comes down from orbit,
and because she is the only one she knows she has power of her
own. They will have to go with her or the project will fail,
and it is time they knew it.
She shakes her head slowly. "I don't think so, Cunningham,"
she says. "I'll be ready on the night, but I'm not now and
I'm not going to be. Not for you, not for your cameras."
Cunningham does not reply. He seems to squint a little, as
if suddenly the light is stronger. Nicole watches Sarah with
smoky eyes, then shakes her long hair and speaks.
"Just dance with me, then." Her words come a little
too abruptly, as if impelled by some form of desperation, and
Sarah wonders what she has been promised, how she has been made
vulnerable to them. When she speaks her voice gives her
away; it is so much younger than her pose. "Just dance a
little," she says. "It'll be all right."
Sarah turns her gaze from Cunningham to Nicole and back, then
nods. "Will a few dances satisfy you, Cunningham?"
she asks. "Or do we end the program where we stand?"
His jaw muscles tighten, and for a moment Sarah thinks the
business is done, that it's over. Then he nods, still facing
her.
"Yes," he says. "If it has to be that way."

"That's how it has to be," she says.t There is a
moment of silence, then Cunningham nods again, as if to himself,
and turns away. Nicole gives a nervous smile, wanting to please,
not knowing who is her ticket to whatever it is she needs. Cunningham
walks to the sound deck and presses a switch. Music buffets the
walls. He turns back and folds his arms, waiting.
Nicole closes her eyes and shrugs out of her jacket. Either
they have gone out of their way to find a woman of Princess's
build or they have been lucky. Sarah watches as Nicole sways
her body to the music, the Plastic Girl, waiting blind to take
an impression.
She steps forward and takes the girl's hands in her own.
DELTA THREE EMERGENCY
ATTEMPTED SUICIDE AUJOURD'OUI EMERGENCY
Deep in her zone, Sarah shakes her head to clear the sweat
from her eyes and feels the drug biting her veins. Princess has
been her partner all night. She leaps and spins and Princess
watches with gleaming eyes, admiring. She feels like the crane
on her back, arms stretching out to fly on pinions of purest
silver. Sarah changes zones and Princess follows, letting her
give a name to their motion, their liquid pattern. She is bringing
Princess in closer until, like a wave, she can fall upon her
from her crest of foaming white.
There is an intrusion into the zone, an attempted alteration
in the pattern. Sarah whirls, an elbow digging deep into ribs,
the zoneboy doubling with the impact. She slices at his neck
with the sword hand and the boy flies from the zone whimpering.
Princess is watching, rapt with glowing admiration. Sarah steps
to her and catches her about the waist, and they spin like skaters
on the edge of sharpened blades.
"Am I the danger that you want?" she asks. The blue
eyes give an answer. I know you, old man, Sarah thinks
in triumph, and bends her head to devour the violet lips, feasting
like a raptor on her prey. The eyes of Princess widen, held in
Sarah's gaze. Her lips taste of salt, and blood.
TAMPA'S TOTALS OVERNITE,
AS OF 8 THIS MORNING, 12 FOUND DEAD---
LUCKY WINNERS COLLECT
AT ODDS OF FIVE TO THREE
Cunningham's car hisses through the night on speed-blurred
wheels. Holograms slide past the windows in neon array. Sarah
watches the back of the driver's neck as it swells from its collar.
"It'll be best if you go alone to the club," Cunningham
says. "Princess may send some of her people ahead, and you
don't want to be seen with anyone."
Sarah nods. He's given these instructions before and she can
recite them word for word, even do a fair imitation of the whispery
monotone. She nods to show she's listening. Earlier this afternoon
she'd collected the second payment of chloramphenildorphin and
her mind was occupied chiefly with ways of putting it on the
street.
"Sarah," he says, and reaches into a pocket. "I
want you to have this. Just in case." His hand comes up
with a small aerosol bottle.
"Yes?" she asks. She sprays it on the back of her
hand, touches it, sniffs.
"Silicon lubricant," he says. "The scent is
right, and should last for hours. Use it in the washroom if you
find that you aren't really . . . attracted to her."
Sarah caps the bottle and holds it out to him. "I don't
plan for it to go that far," she says.
He shakes his head. "Just in case," he says. "We
don't know about what happens when you go behind her walls."
She shrugs and puts it in her belt pouch. She rests her reshaped
jaw on her hand and stares out the window, the hologram adverts
reflecting in her dark eyes, until the car slides to a stop at
the door of her apartment.
She reaches for the latch and opens it, steps out. The heat
of the outside comes in like a smothering blanket, and she can
feel the sweat springing up on her forehead. Cunningham sits
huddled in his seat, somehow smaller than he had been. Up until
now, until the firing of his shaped charge, he'd been in control---
but now he'd committed her to action and all he was able to do
is watch the result and hope he'd calculated the ballistics correctly.
His jaw muscles twitch in a tight smile and he raises a hand.
"Thanks," she says, knowing he's wished her luck
without actually risking a curse by saying it, and she turns
away and breathes out and feels a lightness in her body and heart,
as if the gravity was somehow lessened. All she has left is the
job. No more pleasing Cunningham, no more rules or training,
no more listening to Firebud criticizing the very way she walks,
the way she holds her head. All that is behind.
The apartment is splashed with video color and she knows Daud
is home. He's cleared the coffee table from the center of the
room and is doing his exercises, the freeweights in his hands,
the burning holograms outlining his naked body, his hairless
genitals. She kisses his cheek.
"Dinner?" she asks.
"I'm going with Jackstraw. He wants me to meet someone."
"Someone new?"
"Yes. It's a lot of money." He drops the weights
and lowers himself to the floor, begins strapping another set
of weights to his ankles. She stands over him with a frown.
"How much?" she asks. 
He gives her a quick glance, green laserfire winking from
his eyewhites, then he looks down. His voice is directed to the
floor. "Eight thousand," he says.
"That's a lot," she says.
He nods and stretches his back on the ground, raising his
legs against the strain of the weights. He points his toes and
she can see the muscles taut on the tops of his thighs. She slips
out of her shoes and flexes her toes in the carpet.
"What does he want for it?" she asks. Daud shrugs.
Sarah crouches and looks down at him. She feels a tightness in
her throat.
She repeats her question.
"Jackstraw will be in the next room," he says. "If
anything goes wrong he'll know."
"He's a thatch, isn't he?"
She can see the adam's apple bob as Daud swallows. He nods
silently. She takes a breath and watches him strain against the
weights. Then he sits up. His eyes are cold.
"You don't have to do this," she says.
"It's a lot of money," he repeats.
"Tomorrow my job will be over," she says. "It'll
pay enough for a long time, almost enough for a pair of tickets
out."
He shakes his head, then springs to his feet and turns his
back. He walks toward the shower. "I don't want your money,"
he says. "Your tickets, either."
"Daud," she says. He whirls around and she can see
his anger.
"Your job!" he spits. "You think I don't know
what it is you do?"
She rises from her crouch, and for a moment she can see fear
in her eyes. Fear of her? A wedge of doubt enters her mind.
"You know what I do, yes," she says. "You also
know why."
"Because some man went thatch once," he says. "And
because when you got loose you killed him and liked it. I know
the stories on the street."
She feels a constriction in her chest. She shakes her head
slowly. "No," she says. "It's for us, Daud.
To get us out, into the orbitals." She comes up to him to
touch him, and he flinches. She drops her hand. "Where it's
clean, Daud," she says. "Where we're not in
the street, because there isn't a street."
Daud gives a contemptuous laugh. "There isn't a street
there?" he asks. "So what will we do, Sarah?
Punch code in some little office?" He shakes his head. "No,
Sarah," he says. "We'd do what we've always done. But
it will be for them, not for us."
"No," she says. "It'll be different. Something
we haven't known. Something finer."
"You should see your eyes when you say that," Daud
says. "Like you've just taken uno pinchazo. Like that kind
of hope is your drug, and you're hooked on it." He looks
at her soberly, all his anger gone. "No, Sarah," he
says. "I know what I am, and what you are. I don't want
your hope, or your tickets. Especially not tickets with blood
on them." He turns away again, and her answer comes quick
and angry, striking for his weakness, for the heart. Like a weasel.
"You don't mind stealing my bloody endorphins, I've noticed,"
she says. His back stiffens for a moment, then he walks on. Heat
stings Sarah's eyes. She blinks back her tears. "Daud,"
she says. "Don't go with a thatch. Please."
He pauses at the door, hand on the jamb. "What's the
difference?" he asks. "Going with a thatch, or living
with you?"
The door closes and Sarah can only stand and fight a helpless
war with her anger and tears. She spins and stalks into her room.
Her hardwired nerves are crackling, the adrenaline triggering
her reflexes, and she only stops herself from trying to drive
a fist through the wall. She can taste death on her tongue, and
wants to run the Weasel as fast as she can.
The holograph of Princess sits on her chest of drawers. She
takes it and stares at it, seeing the creamy shoulders, the blue
innocence in the eyes, the innocence as false as Daud's.
TOMORROW/NO
Sarah and Princess follow the ambulance men out of the Aujourd'Oui.
They are carrying the girl from the washroom stall. She has clawed
her cheeks and breasts with her fingernails. Her face is a swollen
cloud of bruises, her nose blue pulp, her lips split and bloody.
She is still trying to weep, but lacks the strength.
Sarah can see Princess's excitement glittering in her eyes.
This is the touch of the world she craves, warm and sweaty and
real, flavored with the very soil of old Earth. Princess stands
on the hot sidewalk while her dirtboys circle and call for the
cars. Sarah puts her arm around her and whispers in her ear,
telling her what Sarah knows she wants. "I am your dream,"
Sarah says.
"My name is Danica," Princess says.
In the back of the car there is a smell of sweat and expensive
scent. Sarah begins to devour Danica, licking and biting and
breathing her in. She left the silicon spray at home but won't
be needing it: Danica has Daud's eyes and hair and smooth flesh,
and Sarah finds herself wanting to touch her, to make a feast
of her.
The car passes smoothly through gates of hardened alloy, and
they are in the nest. None of Cunningham's people ever got this
far. Danica takes Sarah's hand and leads her in. A security man
insists on a check: Sarah looks down at him with a contemptuous
stare and spreads the wings of her jacket, letting his electronic
marvel scout her body. She knows Weasel is undetectible by these
means. The boy confiscates her inhaler. Fine: it is made so as
not to acquire fingerprints. "What are these?" he asks,
holding up the hard black cubes of liquid crystal, ready for
insertion into a comp deck.
"Music," she says. He shrugs and gives them back.
Princess takes her hand again and leads her up a long stair.
Her room is soft and azure, like the sky. Danica laughs and
lies back on sheets that match her eyes, arms outstretched. Sarah
bends over her and laps at her palate. Danica moans softly, approval.
She is an old man and a powerful one, and Sarah knows his game.
His job is to rape Earth, to be as strong as spaceborne alloy,
and it is weakness that is his forbidden thing, his pornography.
To put his bright new body into the hands of a slave is a weakness
he wants more than life itself.
"My dream," Danica whispers. Her fingers trace the
scars on Sarah's cheek, her chin. 
Sarah takes a deep breath. Her tongue retracts into its Weasel's
implastic housing, and the cybersnake's head closes over it.
She rolls Danica entirely under her, holding her wrists, molding
herself to the old man's new girl-body. She presses her mouth
to Danica's, feeling the flutter of the girl's tongue, and then
Weasel strikes, uncoiling itself from its hiding place in Sarah's
throat and chest. Sarah holds her breath as her elastic artificial
trachea constricts. Danica's eyes open wide as she feels the
touch of Weasel in her mouth, the temperature of Sarah's body
but still somehow cold and brittle. Sarah's fingers clamp on
her wrists, and Princess gives a birth-strangled cry as Weasel's
head forces its way down her throat. Her body bucks once, again.
Her breath is hot and desperate in Sarah's face. Weasel keeps
uncoiling, following its program, sliding down into the stomach,
its sensors questing for life. Daud's eyes make desperate promises.
Princess moans in fear, using his strength against Sarah's weight,
trying to throw her off. Sarah holds him crucified. Weasel, turning
back on itself as it enters her stomach, tears its way out, seeks
the cava inferior and shreds it. Danica makes bubbling sounds,
and though she knows it is impossible, although she knows her
tongue is still retracted deep into Weasel's base, Sarah thinks
she can taste blood. Weasel follows the vein to Danica's heart.
Sarah holds her down, her own chest near bursting with lack of
air, until the struggling stops and Daud's blue eyes grow cloudy
and die.
Purple and black rim Sarah's vision. She heaves herself off
the bed, retracting Weasel partway as she gasps for air through
the constricted passage in her throat. She stumbles for the washroom,
falls and crashes into the sink. The impact drives the air from
her. Her hands turn the spigots. Blind, her hands put the Weasel
in the sink and feel the water running chill. Her breath comes
in rasps. Weasel is coated with a gel that supposedly prevents
blood and matter from adhering but she doesn't want even a chance
of Danica's flesh in her mouth. The cybersnake is tearing at
her breast. The water thunders until she can feel nothing but
the speed with which she is falling into blackness, and then
she falls back and sucks Weasel into her and can breathe again
and taste the cool and healing air.
Her chest heaves up and down and her eyes are still full of
darkness. She knows Daud is dead and that she has a task. She
whips her head back and forth and tries to clear it, tries to
scrabble upward from the brink, but Weasel is eating her heart
and she can scarcely think from the pain. Sarah can hear herself
whimper. She can feel the prickle of the carpet against the back
of her neck as she raises her arms above her head and tries to
drag herself along, crawling away, crawling, while Weasel throbs
like thunder in her chest and she thinks she can hear her heart
crack.
Sarah comes to herself slowly, and the black circle fades
from her sight. She is lying on her back and the water is still
roaring in the sink. She sits up and clutches at her throat.
Weasel, having fed, is at rest. She crawls back to the sink and
turns the spigots off. Grasping them, she hauls herself to her
feet. She still has work to do.
In her room, Princess is still spread-eagled on the bed. Dead,
it is easier to see the old man in her. There is a certain smell
in the room, and Sarah realizes that Danica has emptied her bowels
at the last minute. Her stomach turns over. She should drag Princess
across the bed and tuck her under the covers, delaying the moment
when they would find her, but she can't bring herself to touch
the cooling flesh; and instead she turns her eyes away and steps
into the next room of the two-room suite.
She pauses as her eyes adjust to the dim light, and listens
to the house. Silence. She reads the amber Times Square lights
above her vision and can find only routine broadcasts. Sarah
takes a pair of gloves from her belt pouch and walks to the room's
comp deck. She flicks it on, then opens the trapdoor and takes
from her pouch one of the liquid-crystal music cubes Cunningham
has given her. She puts it in the trapdoor and waits for the
deck to signal her.
The cube would, in fact, have played music had anyone else
used it. Sarah has the code to convert it to something else.
The READY signal appears.
She taps the keys in near-silence as she enters the codes.
A pale light flashes in the corner of the screen: RUNNING.
She leans back in her chair and sighs.
Princess was a courier, bringing complex instructions down
from orbit, instructions her company dared not trust even to
coded radio transmissions. Princess would not have known what
she carried; it would only have been on a crystal cube she was
guarding. Sarah herself has no clear idea, though presumably
it contained inventory data, strategies for manipulating the
market, instructions to subordinates, buying and selling strategies.
Information worth millions to any competitor. The crystals cube
would have been altered to a new configuration once the information
was removed to the company computer--- a computer sealed against
any outside tampering, but which could presumably be accessed
through the terminals in the corporate suites.
Sarah also has no clear idea what is on the cube she is carrying.
Some kind of powerful theft-program, she presumes, to break its
way through the barriers surrounding the information so that
it can be copied. She does not know how good her program is,
whether it is setting off every alarm in Florida or whether it's
accomplishing its business by stealth. If it's very good it will
not only copy the information, but alter it as well, planting
a flow of disinformation at the heart of the enemy code, perhaps
even altering the instructions as well, sabotaging the enemy's
marketing patterns.
While the RUNNING light blinks Sarah stands
and goes over every part of the suite she might have touched,
stroking anything that could retain a print with her gloved fingertips.
The house, and Princess, are silent.
It is eleven minutes before the computer signals READY.
Sarah extracts the cube and returns it to her belt. She has been
told to wait a few hours, but there is someone dead in the next
room and every nerve screams at her to run. She sits before the
comp deck and puts her head between her legs, gulping air. For
some reason she finds herself trembling. She battles the adrenaline
and her own nerves, and thinks of the tickets, the cool dark
of space with the blue limb of Earth far below, forever out of
reach.
In two hours she calls herself a cab and walks down the cold,
echoing stair. The security man nods at her as she walks out:
his job is to keep people from coming in, not to hinder their
leaving. He even gives her the inhaler back.
She takes a dozen cabs to a dozen different places, leaving
the satin jacket in one, cinching her waist in tighter and removing
the suspenders in another, in a third reversing her tee shirt
and her belt pouch, both now glowing yellow like a warning light.
The jock persona is gone, and she is dirt again. She finishes
her journey at the Plastic Girl, the place still running flat-out
at four in the morning. As she walks through the sounds of dirt
life assault her, and she takes comfort. This is her world again,
and she knows all the warm places where she can hide.
She takes a room in the back and calls Cunningham. "Come
and get your cube," she says, and then orders rum and lime.
By the time he arrives she's rented an analyzer and some muscle.
He comes in alone, a package in his hand. He closes the door
behind him.
"Princess?" he asks.
"Dead." Cunningham nods. The cube is on the table
before her. She holds out a hand. "Let's see what you've
got," she says.
She checks three vials at random and the analyzer tells her
it's chloramphenildorphin, purity 98% or better. She smiles.
"Take your cube," she says, but he plugs it into the
room's deck first, making sure it has what he wants. Then he
puts it in his pocket and heads for the door.
"If you have another job," she says, "you know
where to find me."
He pauses, a hand on the knob. His eyes flicker. She receives
an impression of sadness from him, as if he were mourning something
newly dead.
He is an earthly extension, Sarah knew, of an Orbital bloc.
She doesn't even know which one. He is a willing tool and an
obedient one, and she has fed him her scorn on that account,
but that doesn't disguise what they both knew. That she would
give all the contents of the packet, and everything else besides,
if she could have his ticket, and on the same terms. 
"I'll be on the ramp in an hour," he says. "Going
back to orbit."
She gives him a grin. "Maybe I'll be seeing you there,"
she says.
He nods, his eyes on hers. He starts to say something, then
turns himself off again, as if he realizes it's pointless. "Be
careful," he says, and leaves without another glance. One
of her hired muscle looks in at her.
"It's clear," she says. The muscle nods.
She looks at the fortune in her hand and feels suddenly hollow.
There is a vacuum in her chest where the joy should be. The drink
she has ordered tastes as flat as barley water, and a headache
throbs in time to the LED light burning in her forehead. She
pays off her hired muscle and takes a cab to an all-night bank,
where she deposits the endorphin in a rented box. Then she takes
the cab home.
The apartment hums softly, emptily. She finds the control
to her LED and turns it off, then throws her clothing in the
trash. Naked, she steps into her room and sees the holo of Princess
on her night table. Hesitantly, she reaches out to it, then turns
it face down and falls into the welcoming blackness.
LOVELY AND WAITING FOR
YOU
TERRY'S TOUGH 'N' TENDER
NOW
It is still night when she awakens to the sound of the door.
"Daud?" she asks, and is answered by a groan.
He is wrapped in a sheet and covered with blood. Jackstraw
holds him up, panting, his neck muscles straining. "Bastard,"
he says.
She picks Daud up like a child and carries him to her bed.
His blood smears her arms, her breasts. "Bastard went thatch,"
Jackstraw says. "I was only gone a minute."
Sarah arranges Daud on the bed and unwraps the sheet. A whimpering
sound forces its way up her throat. She puts her hand to her
mouth. Daud is striped in blood, the thatch must have used some
kind of weighted whip. Weakly, he tries to move, raises a hand
as if to ward a blow.
"Lie back," Sarah says. "You're at home."
Daud's face crinkles in pain. "Sarah," he says,
and begins to cry.
Sarah feels tears stinging her own eyes and blinks them away.
She looks up at Jackstraw. "Did you give him a pinchazo?"
she asks.
"Yeah. First thing."
"How much?"
He looks at her blankly. "Lots. I don't know."
"You weren't supposed to leave the next room," she
says.
His eyes slide away. "It was a busy night," he says.
"I was only gone a minute."
She turns her eyes back to Daud. "It took more than a
minute for this," she says. "Get the fuck out."
"It's not--- "
There is a savage light in her eyes. She wants to tear him
but she has other things to do. "Get the fuck out,"
she repeats. He hesitates for another instant, then turns away.
She cleans the cuts and disinfects them. Daud cries silently,
his throat working. Sarah looks for his injector and finds it,
loads it with endorphins from his cache, and guesses at a dosage.
She puts it in his arm, and he says her name and goes to sleep.
She watches for a while, making sure he hasn't taken too much,
and then puts the covers over him and turns down the light. "Just
lie back," she says. "I've got the price of your ticket."
She leans down to kiss his beardless cheek. The bloody sheet
goes in the trash.
Daud normally sleeps on the convertible sofa in the front
room, and after making sure he is asleep she moves to the other
room and, without bothering to open the sofa, lies down on it.
The room hums, and for a long while she listens. She doesn't
have the strength to sleep.
LIVING IN THE DEAD ZONE?
WE GUARANTEE A PAYOFF
The explosion has enough force to throw the sofa against the
far wall. Sarah feels hot rush of wind that tears the breath
from her throat, the elevator-sensation of the world falling
away, and then a final impact as the wall comes up. Screams are
ricocheting from every corner, all the screams that Princess
never uttered. There are fires licking like red laserlight and
the sounds of nightmares.
She heaves herself to her feet and runs for the other room.
She can see by the light of the burning bed. Daud is sprawled
in a corner of the room, and parts of his body are open and other
parts are on the walls. She is screaming for help, but alone
she manages to get the burning bedding out of the apartment,
through the hole in the wall. Outside, the hot tongues of morning
are rising in the east. She thinks she can hear Daud call her
name.
BODY NEEDING WORK?
WE DELIVER
The ambulance driver wants payment in advance, and she opens
her portfolio by comp and transfers the stock without questioning
the prices he gives her. Daud dies three times before the driver's
two assistants can get him out of the apartment, and each time
they bring him back the prices go up. "You got the money,
lady, and he'll be fine," the driver tells her. He looks
at her nakedness with appreciative eyes. "All kinds of arrangements
can be made," he says.
Later, Sarah sits in the hospital room and watches the doctors
work and is told their rates of payment. She will have to make
plans to convert the endorphin quickly, within a few days. Machines
attached to Daud hiss and thump. The police surround her and
want to know why someone would fire a shaped charge at her apartment
wall from the building across the street. She tells them she
has no idea. They have a lot of questions but that seems to be
the most frequent. Eventually she puts her head in her hands
and shakes her head; and they shuffle for a while and then leave.
She wishes she had the inhaler: she needs the bite of the
drug to keep herself alert, to keep her mind functioning. Thoughts
hammer at her. If Cunningham's people had been in her apartment
they would have known that she had slept in the back room, Daud
in the front. They waited till the lights went down and she had
the time to get to sleep, then fired with a weapon that would
smash through the wall and scatter burning steel through the
inside. They hadn't trusted that she wouldn't tell someone or
that she wouldn't try to use the pieces of knowledge she had
gained as leverage for some shifty little dirtscheme of her own.
"Who would I tell?" she wonders.
She remembers Cunningham at that last moment in the Plastic
Girl, the sadness in him. He had known. Tried, in his way, to
warn her. Perhaps the decision had not been his; perhaps it had
been made over his objection. What did the orbitals care for
one more dirtgirl, when they had already killed millions, and
kept the rest alive only so long as they were useful currency?
The Hetman glides into the room on catlike feet. He wears
a gold earring and his wise, liquid eyes are surrounded by the
spiderwebs of the old hustler's dirtbound life. "I am sorry,
my sister," he says. "I had no indication it would
come to this. I want you to understand."
Sarah nods numbly. "I know, Michael."
"I have people on the West Coast," the Hetman says.
"They will give you work there, until Cunningham and his
people forget you exist."
Sarah looks up at him for a moment, then looks at the bed
and the humming, hissing machines. She shakes her head. "I
can't go, Michael," she says.
"A bad mistake, Sarah." Gently. "They will
try again."
Sarah makes no reply, feeling only the emptiness inside her,
knowing the emptiness would never leave if she deserted Daud
again. The Hetman stands for an uncomfortable moment, and is
gone.
"I had the ticket," Sarah whispers.
Outside she can see the mud boiling under the lunatic sun.
All Earth's soil, looking for their tickets, plugging into whatever
would give them a fragment of their dream. All playing by someone
else's rules. Sarah has her ticket, but the rules have turned
on her like a weasel and she must shred the ticket and spread
it on the street, spread it so she can watch the machines hum
and hiss and keep what she loves alive. Because there is no choice,
and all the girls have no option but to follow the instructions,
and play as best they can. 
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